Expenses review: nice! I caught two missing and sound reimbursements due!!!

Tried a new gym for yoga. Not as great as my regular one, but fit for the “ok, let’s do some exercise after work because I’m too lazy to do that at home” thing.

I hate not getting daily emails, I always play late!

I’ve been sleeping badly again. I was in a foul mood when I got up. I went for my scheduled training run, and over the course of 25 minutes gradually started to feel like a human being again. That was good. Work has been kind of stressful lately too. I managed to skip out a little early as I was going to give blood! Actually, I was going to give plasma. The first time I tried, they couldn’t get the needle seated well enough in either arm. (You need it in there properly because they take the blood, centrifuge out the plasma, and push the red blood cells back in.) So I spent 60 minutes filling out the papers and getting my iron tested and waiting for my turn until finally they called me to my chair. The RN had one feel of my tiny veins and blanched. “I’m going to get Flora,” she said. “If Flora can’t do it, nobody can.” Well, FLORA COULDN’T. I got stuck (again) in both arms (again) and got totally bruised (again) but neither one would work. Flora was terribly apologetic. Oddly, I was actually near tears. It was just so frustrating. All that time and effort and pain and adrenaline WASTED with nothing to show for it. So I ended the day in a foul mood after all. :(

The story continues! I’m working in the lab now.

Alllll related, this energy stuff.

reap 5 extra pieces of fruit :D

I meditated! I Stopped using the computer on time!

Hooray!

I need some encouraging words…totally flubbed an “introducing myself and my dissertation project” thing this morning with an important prof, and felt like a total idiot. Also drank way too much coffee this morning so I’m feeling ill and on-edge. Ick. :(

This whole month has felt off-kilter and off-track. This past Sunday things got totally derailed, the wheels came off, and I feel like I’m sitting beside a pile of smoking machinery in a ditch going “…huh. Not dead, but that pretty much sucked.”

Trying to get back on track in the remaining three days would be stressful and, I think, impossible; at the same time, “I’m throwing up my hands and saying ‘to hell with it’” doesn’t seem like a justifiable reason to ask for fruit. I’m declaring September a washout and am working on regrouping for October instead.

Phooey. Hope y’all are doing better.

It is taking some super extra hard effort, but I’m finally turning it around :) That said, I can’t wait until next month so I have more achievable rules! This whole 5am wake-up is NOT idea of a good morning. 6am is doable, but 5 is just torture! I feel like a zombie all morning, and then again in the mid afternoon, regardless of when I go to sleep at night.

Long day of work then class,but still managed to work out. A-Mazing.

I am engaging in productive procrastination.

I had an idea for a project. I’m good at finding where people are having difficulties and figuring out how to help them work through or around those difficulties. In my search for a particular web site about home/life management, I found a lot of posts from people asking for alternatives to FlyLady, and it seemed that most of the complaints stemmed from an inability to personalize the system. (Some were more about her attitude, the volume of e-mails, the non-organization of the web site, and other more practical concerns.)

I thought that what I could do is develop a method that will help people personalize these kinds of systems – help them figure out what will work for them, so that they can be successful and finally feel in control of their lives.

So I am gathering some information to help me do this. I would really appreciate it if some of you lovely people would be willing to go and fill out the survey here: https://docs.google.com/spreadsheet/viewform?hl=en_US&formkey=dFhGUjFrLThzcEZLQjcwMmdBNEROd2c6MQ#gid=0

Feel free to share the link with anyone else you think might like to be involved. I’m looking at everything here, from what systems are out there to what works and what doesn’t, from what format would be best to whether or not people would be willing to test things out as I develop this method.

Thanks everyone!

Spending the week preparing for an 8-year-old’s birthday party. Does that make me a good parent or a crazy one?

Had an emotional break down last night. However, it was needed and put things into perspective for me. I know what I want, I am a bit closer to knowing how to get it.

Well, I did great on Tuesday, but the weekend wasn’t so hot. I would really like to end the month with positive life points, so I’m asking for help here!

Had a good day. Finished a book (will post to book list – it was very good). Got some more work done in my sewing room. Averted a work-related crisis.

Monday was good – met with my friend for the afternoon – except that I missed DH’s first call and he didn’t leave a message… he had a migraine and was stuck at work all day, poor guy. I have told him he needs to leave me a message if he calls the cell and I don’t answer, because I might be driving or it might be on vibrate or something.

Sunday was a pretty good day. Mostly lazy.

FIL came, had a good visit. I had an anxiety attack before he came because I didn’t feel like the house was in good enough shape, but he was okay with it.

I totally danced with Batman this morning. Went and hauled him out of his cage and cradled him in my arms and danced to the music that was playing on my iPod. Then I let him have some floor time, which he totally loved.

September was “bust through the plateau” month. Yay! October needs to be “get serious about working out” month, if I want to keep making progress.

Felt really tired for no good reason. Got caught up in playing Mass Effect most of the evening and forgot all about my yoga and housecleaning rules.

I’ve sprung a leak, points wise. People at work and one of my in-laws (all of whom I’ve spent time with in the last few days) have strep, part of me is just waiting for the strep shoe to drop…

Some of my rules are hard, but really worthwhile (drinking less, avoiding snacks, etc.). Others are hard but actually I’m doing “other stuff” that’s just as good or better (e.g., if I do a Zumba class, I don’t feel up to doing the pressups, and an hour of aerobic beats 15 mins of pressups any day even though skipping the pressups cost me life).

Next month, I’m going to keep up the hard-but-worthwhile, and come up with some rules for diet & exercise that keep me active but don’t constrain me to eating or doing particular stuff.

This month, however, I’m going to run out of life. So please fruit me:)